good-bye

i wrote a dear john letter today
the words flowed easily
and i said i was through with him
still my heart won't let go

he said i'd regret it someday
but i feel no remorse for
shielding my heart from his
jagged words that wound me

i said goodbye,
now why don't you
go on and leave my heart

i don't need
the self-contempt
you breed in me
good-bye

you've accused and betrayed
but in the same breath you plead
for my trust, my respect
but you threw those away yourself

i'm done living under the tyranny
of your impossible standards
i'm done hating myself
because i don't measure up

damocles

this one's jazzy and as usual, full of pathos

verse 1:
i blame myself for ignoring
damocles' sword hanging
over my head, dangling,
teasing, waiting for it to drop

i knew you had it in you
your words have finally been released
like a dagger thrusting downward
piercing straight through my heart

chorus:
but i didn't ask for this
did i provoke you in some way?
your fragile self-restraint is shattered,
and now your words pierce me

why'd you have to go on
and label me these awful things?
i'd rather take the label
of not yours

verse 2:
i blame myself for placing my
self-worth in your opinion of me
daddy has held the admiring gaze
of these big blue hopeful eyes

well it's too bad you require
too much from me
if i can never measure up
am i doomed to self-hate?

the puppet master

verse 1:
she prances you around
like her own personal puppet
controlling every move you make
changing every thought you think

chorus:
hey, you don't need her
she's just a bottom-feeder
she'll hook into you and suck you dry
she'll drain you of your life

verse 2:
she steals your strength
'cause she has none
she'll take it all if you don't
stand up for yourself

untitled

i suck at titles. you guys need to come up with a title for this one.

verse 1:
you must feel
so righteous in your indignation
your fear has gripped you
and your anger burns you up

if i could make you listen
i might give it a shot
but you've already tuned me out
you'll never give it a second thought

chorus:
why don't you step in my shoes?
feel the pain that has ravaged my soul
why don't you try on reality for a day?
what would it take to make you live out
this empathy you proclaim?

verse 2:
i can't hear your claims
of humility over the din
of your obnoxious self-righteousness
you plug your ears and pretend you're okay

you'll try to fix me with
your formulas and scripture verses
you can't get your hands dirty
you can't listen and just be here

nos caemos bien

v.1
you're so captivating
it's not safe for me
to glance at you
for too long

i might drown in the depths
of your deep blue eyes
i might lose myself
i might lose control

you're like my kryptonite
my knees go weak
when i'm around you
and i can't stop from falling for you

chorus:
it's too late
i've already fallen for you
i can't change this fact
i can only delay my destiny

i know i want you
it just won't work right now
i'd love a little taste
but i know i'd take it all

v.2
why'd you have to come along
so unexpected and change
my plans, my future,
that path i was walking

i can't turn back now
i can't look away
i can't break my gaze with the one
my heart truly belongs to

refrain:
maybe we can wait a while
till i'm not so torn
and you're not so scared